[He has to think about that, cast his mind back to the caves. When he speaks, it's slowly.]

Sort of. I don't not remember any of it, it's not like I blacked out or anything. I definitely was awake and thinking, but not thinking like I am right now. Everything was a lot more simple. It was just like... I can't remember making a conscious decision to do something abhorrent. I just did it, because it felt necessary for survival.

But I remember it all. And I know I was more with it than my partner.