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robin becker ([personal profile] energeia) wrote2023-11-25 09:00 pm

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dead_tongue: (drinks?)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-18 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Are you? Good. I'm glad to hear it.

[Honest as ever.]

So! You wanted to grill me about my nosiness or something?
dead_tongue: (drinks?)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-18 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, okay, not grill. That's me being defensive, I suppose. Some people seemed pretty upset with me. Again.

All answers are good answers.
dead_tongue: (cleaned up)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-18 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
More so than I thought!

Oh, I thought I had mentioned... existential crisis combined with genuine curiosity. I like knowing how people think.
dead_tongue: (nerves)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-18 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[He accepts it and sets it carefully down.]

Thank you.

Oh. No, no. More like... a bunch of somethings. Mostly bad, a few good. I've not been very good about communicating lately.
dead_tongue: (nice boy)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-19 11:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Cave stuff.

[Simple.]
dead_tongue: (nice boy)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-22 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh. Yeah. Uhm.

It's just been... a lot of self destructive behaviour. I'm not proud of it. And I know it's because I'm trying to punish myself for what I did in the caves. I hurt people. I hunted people. It was a bad scene.
dead_tongue: (nice boy)

cw: more cannibalism wahoo

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-22 10:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Because I wasn't human, and I was hungry. And I had to feed my...

[He pauses and taps his fingers against his collarbones to calm down.]

My partner was trapped. Too big to get out of one of the caves. I was smaller, so I'd go hunting and bring back the body to feed him after I drank the blood. Whatever he didn't eat, I'd finish.

It was my fault he was down there with me. It never should have happened.

So. I just... wanted to be punished for that most of all.
dead_tongue: (nice boy)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-28 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[He has to think about that, cast his mind back to the caves. When he speaks, it's slowly.]

Sort of. I don't not remember any of it, it's not like I blacked out or anything. I definitely was awake and thinking, but not thinking like I am right now. Everything was a lot more simple. It was just like... I can't remember making a conscious decision to do something abhorrent. I just did it, because it felt necessary for survival.

But I remember it all. And I know I was more with it than my partner.
dead_tongue: (turtleneck)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-28 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

[Honestly he's relieved to be told that he did wrong, that he needs to pay for it.]

Then how?
dead_tongue: (jfc)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-29 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
I've spoken to one of them. We ran into each other, uhm. At work.
dead_tongue: (distressing)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-29 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
[He takes that hand immediately.]

You're right. It's so obvious, that's what I should have done immediately, but...

[He starts crying.]

I was scared. God forgive me but I was s-so scared.
dead_tongue: (turtleneck)

[personal profile] dead_tongue 2024-04-29 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Iggy feels no shame in pressing his face to Robin, no embarrassment in his tears. It's the first time since he's been back that he feels genuinely like someone understands his feelings. Even the others who were in the caves don't seem to, or to know what he needs.]

Yes. You're right.

[He hugs her tight before he lets go and wipes his eyes.]

I can do this. It's the right thing to do.

I'm not used to hurting people. Death I understand, but physical pain like I inflicted? Not so much.
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